Jc_Fr3aK

hehe

2004-09-11T10:04:00.000+08:00

wah dah lama neh gak nulis.. gi dun have time... assignment menumpuk.....=( well how ever.. skarang tulis deh.. before sebentar lagi di culik buat masak" ck ck ck...... sejak post terakhir banyak banget hal" yg terjadi really shocking news.. gua akan crita sesingkat mungkin hehehehe=P

yg pertama" kemaren ini smua orang tau donk udahan.. dubes oz yg di jkt di bomb.. oh no.... gua gak tau napa.. tp gua sedih.... banget denger berita itu.. kayanya kenapa sih.. org" pada rese sentimen ma Indo.. gak care banget ma Indo... kan effectnya bisa jd jelek buat Indonesia......=( how ever.. scary banget deh.... mo liat potonya gak?? kalo mau click di sini nih........ pokoknya gua sebel deh.. ma tukang bomb itu.. kuraj.. tapi gua yakin satu hal yg benar.. and will always be true.. GOD love Indonesia.......... and me to..........

well, hal kedua yg bikin gua shock itu baru terjadi semalam... gua bermimpi aneh.... gle biasanya gua mimpi gak inget.. tp yg ini masih inget gitu.. aneh abis seh mimpinya.. gini gua crita sebelon tidur deh.. smalem aji di sini trus kan gua nyalain lagu r kelly gitu ama usher ama yg laen" nah di loop.. trus gua ketiduran trus aji pulang tanpa membangunkan.. alhasil tuh lagu muterrr terus ampe pagi.. kalo orang yg nyanyi dah serak kali ya.. hehehehe=P nah tadi pagi.. gua setengah sadar gitu kedengeran lagu r-kelly yg the world greatest... nah gua mimpi.. ada ce negro nyanyi bagussssss banget mirip abis nyanyinya.. jd ini kaya gi di concert gitu.... trus die ternyata r-kelly yang dah operasi plastic jadi cewe... *euh...... trus die jalan di aisle gitu kan... ya pokoknya jalanan yg ke arah gua deh.. nah trus critanya dia kiss fans fans nya... gle gua langsung ngibrit ke wc.. trus tiba tiba gua bangun dah.. hehehehe gile mimpinya serem banget...... hiiiiiiii

nah trus gua baru nonton akira jimbo.. beberapa hari yg lalu..... wow.. shocking juga.. ada orang bisa maen drum kaya gitu.. ck ck ck.. dia maen drum doank.. tp dah kaya satu band.. keren keren...... jago abis..... lucu lagi orangnya.l. heheh waktu itu nonton di WAAPA ama annes, farley, chris, samy, ko natan, ama temennya trus ada hendra juga.. neh potonya....

nah trus pas waktu hari selasa.. gua bangun jem 8 pagi..ada kelas sianknya..gua rencananya mo kerjain assgn buat besoknya.. eh pas liat ada assgn due ari ini.. gua kira due minggu depan.. alhasil gua kerjain... searian eh.. selesai.. trus gua ke skul.. eh beneran gak due.. duenya minggu depan... oh no... trus gua pulang malemnya kerjain assgn buat besoknya... ampe jem 6 pagi... bangun jem 8 kerjain lagi.... sampe ketiduran di bus 2 kali.. pulang pegi... untunk Tuhan bae.. suru malaikatnya bangunin gua... pas pada stopan gua.. jdnya gak kelewatan deh... heheheh trus pulang dari situ.. riva ajakin nonton dvd lady killer.. gua nonton di kamar bambang trus tiba" ilang gua.. hehehe ketiduran.. jd cuma liat depan nya ma akhirnya..... hehhehehe=P trus gua makan mandi trus gua tepar lagi ampe besok paginya.. trus gua kaget lagi.. soalnya dah jem 8.30 gua skul mulai 8.30 jd bolos dah.. heheheh=P

tadi abis nonton youth alive lho..... kerennnnnnnnn about 6000 ppl come.. trus yg preach russell evans... yg pemimpinnya planet shakers... tp jari kaki gua dah kribo.. soalnya tadi ke rumah ko natan bantuin masak... pake sendall eh...... alhasil keinjek" pas gua gi nonton konser.. kan mereka pada loncat".. ck ck ck....=( anyway GOD is so awsomeeeeeee gua di ingetin buat SURENDER ALL....................

nah trus...pls help me pls.. pray for me... keputusan mengenai Visa gua senen ini neh.. seremmmmmmmmmmmm =( seremmm

hm.............

2004-09-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

wah.. dah lama gak nulis blog.. mau di ganti seh lay outnya... tapi gi males gitu.. lupa mulu coba" ganti... well, many things to say.... tadi gua pelayanan di kebaktian.. wah suasananya enak banget.... bener bener... mungkin karna kita focus ma Tuhan kali ya.... tadi kita semua di tegur.. selama ini kita dah gak focus lagi ma Tuhan.. kita lebih focus ke permainan kita... yang pasti... GOD UR SO AWSOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

second... me gi binun banget neh.... is this felling real??? or my emo just playing with me.... i fink my emo just playing around with me... well.. wont keep myself like this.... expecting what i shouldnt expecting.......

thirdly... gua senenk soalnya dapet message di frienster dari temen bae gua yang udah lamaaaaaaaaaaa banget gak contact..... wow, cerita banyak banget..... and dia cerita what God have done in his life lately... bener bener GOD is AWSOMEEEEE nih gua tulis deh sebagian dari critanya die....

"sekarang gw dah di bandung.. gw kuliah di unpad, ky, dpt spmb kemaren pilihan pertama, jurusan akuntansi.. tp bukan itu aja yg mau gw kasi tau, tp gw pengen ngasi tau elu kalo gw dapet sesuatu yg luar biasa bggt, ky.. bayangin aja ya ky, waktu tes2 masuk universitas kemaren kan gw nyoba di 3 tempat, pertama spmb (pilihan gw unpad dan unbraw, saingan seindonesia), kedua di stan(ambil d3 perpajakan saingan satu stadion senayan yg diambil cuma 500), ketiga nhi(manajemen kepariwisataan, persaingannya 1 banding 10 yg diterima), dan loe tau, gak ada satupun yg gw gak masuk! :) dashyat emang, bahkan nyokap gw, sodara2 gw, pada gak percaya sama kejadian kyk gni.. dan dgn terpaksa gw harus milih salah satu, dan gw akhirnya milih di unpad.. waaaw! God is good, man!"

gle ya.... gua turut senenk lah buat die....... trus gua tiba tiba inget ma temen" gua... kaya tadi pagi ada perpisahan Jill... time is so short.... gua sedih deh kalo pikirin ttg temen" gua... cos gua tau one day gua bakal keilangan mereka.... either gua or mereka bakal pulang.... or go somewhere else =( y we can't be like this forever??? well, i kno... we just can't so gua cuma bisa berharap.. supaya kita smua masih bisa contact"an jangan sampe keilangan contact.... please please please..... keep contacting me... i dont wanna lose a friend... it SUKS.........

dah ah itu dulu...... daaaaaaaaa

Tong kafe....

2004-08-21T01:49:00.000+08:00

wah ari ini enak.. hidup bak gak ada beban...... bangun siankkkkkkkkk trus ke ct bantuin bagiin flyer buat tong kape.. trus pegi deh ke tong kape.. rame abissssssssssssssssssssssssstttttttttttttttttttt katanya seh ada 560 org yg datenk... ck ck ck ampe pegel bediri searian... bandnya keren" lagi... jd pengen punya band... =( tp sayank skill gak memadai.. hehehehe ya gitu lah pokoknya asik abissssssssssssssssssssssssss cyaooooooooooo

BT........

2004-08-19T23:27:00.001+08:00

BTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT thats what i feel this morning... i was staying awake till 5.30 this morning doing my assignment, then i have to wake up at 7.30 cos my class starts at 8.30, and u know what? when i arrived at school, the teacher just said to me that the assignment is EXTENDED oh noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bt abisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss then i have a HUGE expenditure today... paying the bills.. then me and Riva went to carroussell then straight to garbo... just trying to enjoy my self... now im hungry...

btw two days ago is the INDEPENDENCE DAY OF INDONESIA.... want to write a post titled MERDEKA but.. u kno.. so busy dont have time for that.. so i will write it now... well, in INDO...

MERDEKAAAAAAAAAAA!!! itulah teriakan rakyat Indonesia 59 tahun yang lalu serempak setelah SOEKARNO dan HATTA mem-proklamasikan INDONESIA... tanpa sadar Indonesia sudah melewati 59 tahun merdeka... Indonesia sudah mulai berkembang... melewati banyak pasang dan surut... tapi sekarang Indonesia SEKARAT.... bukan hanya dalam hal jasmani tapi juga rohani... seringkali kita hanya "Memanfaatkan" Indonesia.. kita ambil semua sumberdaya yg kita bisa sebanyak"nya dari Indonesia lalu kita tinggalkan Indonesia begitu aja.... tapi saat ini Indonesia butuh orang" yang MAU: menangisi Indonesia, mendoakan Indonesia, memikirkan Indonesia.... Indonesa butuh KITA....... apakah kita masih punya hati buat INDONESIA? belakangan ini Tuhan ingatkan saya akan Indonesia.... kampung halaman kita... sering kali kita sudah melupakan Indonesia.. tapi saat ini Tuhan rindu buat pulihin Indonesia. Tuhan ingin membangkitkan Indonesia, Tuhan ingin mengadakan REVIVAL di Indonesia, tapi Tuhan butuh orang orang yg mau MENANGIS buat Indonesia, Tuhan butuh orang orang yang mau BERDOA buat Indonesia.. Tuhan butuh orang orang yang mau TERJUN untuk Indonesia... saya gak tau gimana caranya Tuhan bakal pake kita karna mungkin kita adalah minoritas Tapi tuhan gak cari siapa yang mampu Tuhan cari siapa yang MAU.... mau gak kita liat REVIVAL terjadi di Indonesia? mau gak kita liat NAMA INDONESIA di hormati oleh negara" lain? dan bahkan Indonesia bisa jadi BERKAT buat bangsa" lain? kalo kita rindu... mari kita mulai dari DIRI KITA sendiri... minta Tuhan tanamkan hati buat Indonesia... at the end... HIDUP INDONESIA!!!

Bloodyyyyyyyy...................

2004-08-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

hi, today?? today is quite good... sleep in da morning.. about 3 o'clock... doing my assgnment... then... went with my pren to the harbour town.. just accompany her looking around.... u kno... girls... =P. Then we ate the kebabs.. pretty nice... then i went to the superboring lecture.... trying so hard not to fall a sleep... ck ck ck.. then i hand the assgn in.. and when i wanna back.. my friend ask me to wait for her... another friend... she said she's going to finish in about 20 minutes.. so i wait for her... and u kno what? she didnt finish till one and a half hours later.. =0 dunno y.. and my internet is blocked.. so i can use the internet at school... so i just playing reversi for one and a half hour... can u imagine that??? wow whats wrong with me today? im so good... =P then, i went to the red cross... to donate my BLOOD... i was looking forward to do it.... there was alot of ppl in there and they are quite nervous for this... then my turn comes... i went in.. the lady ask me questions.. then she ask me when is the last time i had a gastric upset... i said 2 days ago.. then she didnt allow me to donate my blood.. so she just tell me to go out and have a refreshment... so i had 2 pizzas, a chocolate, and juices... oh and cracker as well... without giving my blood away... =P well i ll be back next week to complete my payment... now im staying here... and wanna play gunbound but its server broke down... =(

Gimme a break....

2004-08-12T01:02:00.000+08:00

Hi me again… today everything seems soooo uncontrollable, first thing in the morning, just realize that I miss schedule the assignment... I thought it will due in 2 weeks time... but no... It is due on Monday and Thursday…. Help me lord… then I just read the email saying the next payment due this Friday, so I will use all the limit in my atm for 2 days... which leave me with $1.50 to survive for 3 days… ups sorry.. I mean 20 cents… cos I just use the $1.30 to buy a 300ml milk at the canteen today... to cover my raging and screaming stomach… after spending a few minutes looking at the menu for something priced less than $2, then I read an email that there will be a replacement class this Saturday… which is the GO day… gimme a break…. Then, tonight… I opened the mail box... there are 4 mails for my family... I fink it’s the visa thing… so I decided to walk to the post office to pick it up... then guess what.. Yes Ur rights... the post office close…. Today is crazy… and not forget to mention that I miss several bus and by a few second today... which force me to wait for another one… then all the work to be done... than hearing a not to good news.. From my parents…. im burn out…….then... just now... im hungry... dont have any food left... , and there is no food priced at 20 cents…. Well how ever… keep telling to my self… THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE, I WILL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT………. And guess what… I fink God still spent some times taking care of me… cos I just found the food from yesterday... that I havent eat… and now I ate it already…. =9 then… guess what.. I found a treasure…. Supermie….. I even forgot that I still have it… I opened my cupboard a few times already during the week… but never see it... just now I found it... isnt it great??????

S)r3w3d

2004-08-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

Hey, haven't written for a long time. Pretty busy these days. Lots of things going on, I have 2 assignments due yesterday, sleep at 4 o'clock Sunday night and woke up at 8 wows. Then doing these 40 days things quite tired and guess what? I have another 2 assignment due in 2 weeks time. And guess what, the teacher just gimme the second assignment rite now, man gimme a break… so I have 3 more assignment to go, soon to be 6

Yesterday, my sister called me and told me to check if there is any mail for my dad, cos she just received a letter saying that our visa will be cancelled, I don’t know what I should feel right now. This seems like ruined everything, all my plan for summer school thing, finish my school earlier, and lotsa things. Pretty screwed, exam is coming in 6 weeks, and I think I should go away from oz before then, ill try to ask for extension, hopefully it worked. Well, I keep telling my self that “everything happened for a reason”, but I its really hard to see it right now. Well what is the worse thing happened? I just go and never come back.. Now I know why He taught me to pray for this few weeks..

Sm!l3

2004-07-31T01:58:00.000+08:00

today? hm... went to school padahal arusnya day off cuma ada kelas pengganti... then, abis itu oikos gabungan... topicnyaaaaaaaaaaa ttg.. Relationship wiv the opposite sex... uuuuuuuuuuuu coolll... well, i learn something today... the truth n nothing but the truth... there is no such thing that create happiness or sadness in our live... for no external factor can effect it.. but the internal factor... so the one who determine our feeling is our tought... so if we always think in positive way and we always smile...... we can create a bright day.. eventho its just as normal as other day.... so i wanna learnt new things today.... first to always smile like this (^________________________________________________________________________^) second to remmember namessssssssss for i always forgot someone elses names... now i wanna start calling everyone by their name...

If i could turn

2004-07-28T11:04:00.000+08:00

"If I Could Turn Back The Hands Of Time"

How did I ever let you slip away

Never knowing I'd be singing this song some day

And now I'm sinking, sinking to rise no more

Ever since you closed the door

[1] - If I could turn, turn back the hands of time

Then my darlin' you, you'd be mine

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time

Then my darlin' you'd still be mine

Funny, funny how time goes by

And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye

Why oh why oh why should one have to go on suffering

When every day I pray please come back to me

[Repeat 1]

And you had enough love for the both of us

But I, I, I did you wrong, I admit I did

But now I'm facing the rest of my life alone, whoa

[Repeat 1]

I'd never hurt you

(If I could turn back)

Never do you wrong

(If I could turn back)

And never leave your side

(If I could turn back)

If I could turn back the hands

There'd be nothing I wouldn't do for you

(If I could turn back)

Forever honest and true to you

(If I could turn back)

If you accept me back in your heart, I love you

(If I could turn back the hands)

(If I could turn back)

That would be my will

(If I could turn back)

Darlin' I'm begging you to take me by the hands

(If I could turn back the hands)

I'm going down, yes I am

(If I could turn back)

Down on my bended knee, yeah

(If I could turn back)

And I'm gonna be right there until you return to me

(If I could turn back the hands)

(If I could turn back)

If I could just turn back that little clock on the wall

(If I could turn back)

Then I'd come to realize how much I love you Love you love you love you

(If I could turn back the hands)

today...

2004-07-28T02:35:00.000+08:00

hi... its been a while since my last post... always forgot sorry.... well, today i was heading for school then while i was waiting at the bus stop.. suddenly my gastric hurt so bad.. so badly till it even quite hard for me to walk home... but thank God i can take a medicine and rest.. then in the evening i have an oikos wiv brother Hadi, Farley, Anness, and Ardhi... it was really fun and enjoyable... we discuss everything.. n then we discuss about our service... its seem that we already lose something... n we want it back.. specially the feelling of home.. and the bond between us... so we really want to improve it.. start from ourselve...

then this afternoon i read a comment from someone in my friend blog.. it was addressed for me aswell... i was reminded that these days we already become a bit exclusive... we are not reallise that... well for me it is simply becouse u feel bellong to the group already and u feel their acceptance therefore automatically we will become very close... but to you guys that think we are exclusive we want to say sorry... we will try to improve our relationship... if u guys wanna talk to me.. just gimme a shout.... or contact me.. but pls... tell me who are you... that is more pleasant.. i will keep it convidential... ok... no hard feeling.... for u guys that need someone to share your feelling you can gimme a shout as well... or contact me... ill try my best...

well now im tired already... so i wanna sleep first... good night.... and GBU...

Lost???????

2004-07-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

Hi, today is a wonderfull day... start my day by skiping the class... lol... cos the teacher say they dont need me as long as i do the assignment and show up in the exam.... so.. yea... well not for permanently.. just today.. coz i was over slept actually, =$ we went to takas for lunch then we come to nita's house.. just play around wiv friends... then we went to garbo.. to eat dinner at sushi bento... n then aji told me that there is a new gal who is quite..."ehem ehem" pretty wow... is there any vacancy??? can i?? hehehhe=P, i mean for the job.... don't think me wrong.... LoL.... yea im looking for a job actually... well i prefer a job that have some thing to do with IT so i can put it in my resume later on.... then we watched i, robot... quite good movie... specially the meaning... i always try to find something from every movie i watched... like yesterday... i watch Paycheck.. n thats answering one of my question.... y God don't just tell us about our future... y our future should be mistery..?? then God answer.. through this movie.. when we know about the future... we just create it ourself... we have Hope no more..... it just like this.... if we know already that we gonna fail... than we just stop doing it cos we know we will fail... but, actually... we can change the future..... if we do our best... we can change the fact that we will fail in the future.... well, this I, Robot.. gave me a meaning... that we have been created for a reason.... God created us For a reason...... so find it..... ; -)

well, i was away from Him again... for the thousands time i said sorry to Him... feeling so low, so hopeless, so wreckless.... n that "ugly" thing keep disturbing me... shooting me brain.... but just now.. i was doing "business" in the toilet while reading... then He.. speak to me... through a song... i attach the song to this blog.. so it is the song that u are listening to right now.... it said, it over now.. don't have to cry anymore... just realise... I will never leave u even for a second.... whoa.. sudenlly, a tear dropped from my eye... i said sorry Lord... i want to come "Home"...... i miss u.... and i love u...... so .. enjoy the song....

CoMfOrt......???????

2004-07-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

hi... today... as usual... schoolllllll wow.... but its not that bad... well... quite ok..... ate a lot of junk food today..... i ate a sousage roll for breakfast.... then another one for afternoon.... wiv coke... and eat dominos pizza at night.. wah if i keep this pattern of eating i fink i can make a sequell film of supersize me.... well, got no choice... just need a quick one.... cos dont have enough time...

ok, now i wanna share about my feeling.... i feel that im so comfortable now... wiv my life, wiv my ministry, wiv everything...... and thats causing problem..... God just said to me today.... while im on the way to school...... He remind me of that story about the lost son... u kno all the story right... God remind me that actually the Richness... of his father is the reason of him go..... and in fact His father money.. is the one he use to pay the cost.... rite? same as us... sometimes... His blessing... is the one that we use to "go away" from Him... we run from Him using his blessing in our live.... and that struck me right there in that momment.... i realize that I'm actually inside that story lately... im staying in this comfort zone and start seeking the blessing not the blesser... seeking His hand not His heart.... and i become like martha... busy doing things for Him.. but forget about Himself... i said O..my Lord.. bless me... rather than.. Oh, my soul.. bless the Lord... worship Him... i can feel the sadness in His heart that time... He really" want the relationship wiv us.. but sometimes we just forget about Him.... actually he dont need us to do all His work... cant He do it himself? dah... He create the earth...... He create us... He is the one who make all of this in only 6 days......... He dont need us to be "busy" for Him.... for He create us to have a relationship with us..... He create us to Worship Him.... not for... playing wiv his toy and forget Him.....

then God remind me about mary... Jesus went to a pharisee's house to eat that time... and suddenly mary a prostitute... a sinner... come and weep at His feet and begin to wash His feet with tears and did wipe them with the hairs of her head and kissed His feet and anointed them with the the ointment. an alabaster box of ointment.....

.....

and Jesus said, I entered into thine house, thou gavest Me no water for my feet: but she hath washed My feet with tears and wiped them with the hairs of her head.
Thou gavest Me no kiss but this woman since the time i came in hath not ceased to kiss My feet.
My head with oil thou didst not anoint but this woman hath anointed My feet with ointment.

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(read luke 7:36-50)

all the pharisees and sadducees reject her.... and even in the Gospel of Matthew and Mark, Mary's harshest critics weren't the pharisees or sadducees. the diciples of Jesus were ready to throw her out....

and Jesus said, Let her alone; why trouble ye her? she hath wrought a good work on Me.
she hath done what she could she is come aforehand to anoint My body to the burying.
Berily I say unto you, Wheresoever this gospel shall be preached thoughout the whole world, this also that she hath done shall be spoken of for a memorial of her (mark 14:6,8-9)

lets get it right... at that time... ppl share the road with donkey and horses.. and they wear sandals, an open sandals..... so it is imposibble to keep your feet clean.. from the animal droppings.. the dung.. and the dirty job of washing the animal droppings off of everyone's feet was reserved for the most insignificant servant of the house hold. Any servant who did that was automatically considered the unimportant expendable slave... the lowest one.. and openly treated with disdain..., an alabaster ointment is the best one that time... it was really" expensive.... and the bible says a woman's hair is her glory...

so... Mary come to that place... wipe so much... (u can imagine how much tears dropping that she is able to wash Jesus feet with her tears..) and wipe Jesus feet off of that animal drop.... and wipe that with her glory.... and then break the box of alabaster and anointed them..... and being humiliated in front of everyone.... if all of the diciples come to that place... at least there are 12 of other ppl watching.... what a humble servant...

we can be that close to spiritual encounter.. that close to find out His heart... but like the phareeses we missed that moment... but what God really want here is your brokeness... so if u want to have a Higher relationship with Him... we must be broken... like Mary... she break that box of ointment... now, what is our "most precious" is it our future? our plans? our worried? break it and give it to Jesus so that He can smell that fragrance.... remmember... Jesus didn't break the box... but Mary did... so.. you have to do it your self.... then you have to humble your self.... like she did... the end of our PRIDE is the born of God's glory in our life... when we start to humiliate our self.... God's glory start to fill us.....

and guess what is the end of the story.... Mary.. come early that morning and she is weeping and mourning... she went to the tomb bringing another box of oinment and she want to anoint Jesus's tomb one more time.. when she found that the tomb is empty... God was heading somewhere else... Jesus need to do something that really important.. but, He can't stand it.... He call Mary.. and let her be the first one to see Him... so.. why the Son of God, the creator of the heaven and earth... stopped from doing the most important thing... its because you can find her in His heart.....

i was crying in my heart... i really want to have that kind of relationship with Him.... i want to be in His heart... but it was not easy... we have to be broken.... remmember.. only "dead" men see God... so i want to push my self to the limit... i want to break everything that holding me back... i want to know you God... i want to know The Blesser... not the Blessing... i want to know Your Heart not Your Hand... oh Lord.. forgive me, i forgoten about You already... i do the "work for You..." but i forgot to Seek You... i want to start building the relationship.... i know its not easy... but im so desperate to know You..... i don't want to just know about You... i want to know You..... im sick being what im now...

Fr!eNd

2004-07-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

wah ari ini pegi ke skul... as usual boring abis.... tapi gak papa seh.. soalnya ada ce cantique duduk di sebelah.. hehehehehe=P sayank.. cenya a kind of "party girl" hm.. dun like that kind of gal....

well, dunno i feel so sad.. i was thinkin.. that its not really good to studying here... overseas i mean... y? becos.. i always lose my friends... specially when their study time is finish.. n their back for good... just have a look at my Oikos for example... me.. gonna back to jakarta, denny to medan, bambang to surabaya.. and wandi to ponti... our chance to meet again is sooooo small... n in fact... eventho we keep contacting each other.. but we will lose the "closeness" of our relationship... coz simply.. ppl change.... today we are the closest friend in the world, the next day we are just friend, and the next day we even can't remmember each other..... sometimes i let my ego drive me.. n fink... y can't we be just like now for ever n ever n ever never..... but i don't think we can... life must go-on... ='(

thats y.. right now i wanna say thank you to you guys who once have ever been my closest friend... and my closest friend right now... coz u have brightened my day... n u r there too during my sadness time... and even for u guys that i just know briefly coz u have put "colours" to my life..... and i wanna let all of my friends know... that i really" care for you guys... i love u... and it really been a privilage for me to know u guys..... eventho we might not "close" anymore.....
and one more time.... THANK YOU.......

First Day

2004-07-15T18:18:00.000+08:00

wah... first day of my blog neh... bikin searian... cari" skin... eh ketemu yg sedang mencerminkan perasaan.. hehehe Skul suksssssss.... hehehe=P ari ini skul pagi" gle ngantuk abis.. smalem pegi ampe pagi soalnya ma rama finita anita denny ma wandi... wah seru juga jalan" ke kingspark trus ke eastperth sebelonnya ngape dulu di Gucce.. quite nice.... btw back to topic... gurunya boringggggggggg abis.... gak ngerti dia ngomong aja.. kayanya dateng cuma buat attendance... hehehe trus bt searian di rumah gak ada sapa" smuanya camp....=( jd bikin blog deh... eh... upload lagunya setengah mati... gle... ampe kesel rasanya... ya udah deh.. coba upload dulu neh.. kalo udah tar sambung lagi... daaaaaaaaaaa